Writings and Ramblings
Date: April 17th
Location: Leadville
Alaska is so close.
Someday I will write about happiness and wonder but I’m low today. Once again triggered by spending time with my loved ones and then returning alone to my empty apartment. Mose Haven feels like a villain at this point. An abusive partner that I’m surviving. When I pass Idaho Springs on I-70, that’s when the oppressive weight of loneliness starts pressing on my chest making it hard to breathe.
I need my reset.
I’m reading The Outrun by Amy Liptrot. It gives me a little hope that maybe I can achieve some healing in Alaska. That I will always wrestle with depression, but I'll find more ways to cope and allow my support network to hold me. To allow my environment to also hold me.
European Starling: She sits on the line and mimics the sound of everything she’s ever heard.
Til next time...Finley